Starting Weight: 234lbs
Goal weight: 147lbs
Short Term Goal: 42lbs by January 31st.


200lbs = New pair of trainers (green adidas)
180lbs = New riding hat and boots
160lbs = New chaps, whip and gloves.
147lbs = SHOPPING SPREE IN LONDON WITH GRANDMA AND A WHOLE NEW WARDDROBE!

So, now, I'm going to laminate a piece of paper, and blu tac it to my wall and use it as a wipe board to keep track of my weight loss and my goals.

But I think that's because I took it too fast, I didn't have anything else to occupy my time with except eating and generally was very lazy.

But now, I'm working alot of hours at Dominos. I know the temptation to eat pizza is one of the biggest I've ever had to deal with. But lemme tell you, the raw pizza, like...the dough n stuff? not too appetising. Plus I'm getting kind of sick of it. I know I've put on 3 or 4 pounds while working there. But hopefully its all about to change.

I'm going to take things slowly now. My goal weight is still the same, my mini goals are still the same too. Sooo hopefully I'll be alright. Now that I'm on study leave at college, and won't be returning, I should have alot of tiem to excercise. Whether I will or not is another matter. But we'll have to see over the next few weeks won't we. =)

Majorly. Especially since going back to college. It's actually awful. I had 3 kitkat chunkys in one day!
Last night, on Boxing day, my two cousin's boyfriends were there. Of course, me being the same age as Nicola, everyone was expecting me to bring mine. OBVIOUSLY THOUGH. There is no boyfriend. And everyone tried making excuses and stuff, but I coudl see it all in their eyes. The sympathy and other bollocks. So I decided to take matters into my own hand.

I've been reading up on the Paul McKenna diet. And it sounds very effective. However, I'm not sure I'll be able to tell when my body is hungry and not just thirsty.

I'm contemplating buying the book, I also need a new yoga dvd. My mum got a bunch of excercise equipment for christmas, so I'm planning to use that. Especially with my new iPodic device. I tried earlier today, and consquently FAILED.

So, here is my before-new-years-resolution, stay on the bandwagon, and lose my flab!

I have been so awful this week, with snacking and eating the wrong foods. Not again though. Today is when I QUIT. Not the diet. The whole snacking non-healthy food thing. It's so bad.

Hmm I've been fairly good. I suppose. I stayed round my nan's last night, and managed to say no to an apple pie. 3 times. Which was awesome. Uhm, today I ate a fastfood burger. But just the burgere, than half a snickers duo. But bah. But I had lentils and rice for lunch, and toast with UNMELTED cheese for breakfast. bah.

So today, I went to coalhouse fort with myc ousin for some hallowe'en walk thing. There were some dancers there who were doing an "indian tribal dance" which looked so awesome, and I said I wanted to take it up and so did my cousin. Except it's near rochford airport, which is sort of real far away. So we're going to look for something similar nearer. But nic said she'd also play squash/badminton with me on weekends. Which I hope will be awesome man. I hope she means it. She didnt' sound all that interested. But I can't very well; play squash on my own!

Well that's all today folks.

...Funnily enough =(. And I have to work tomorrow, but not to worry. I should be done by 10-11 if I'm pushing it a bit by being lazy. Then I'm going to go round my Grumma's for a while. Pay her a visit.

Today. I had porridge for breakfast, and I HARDLY snacked. Whereas yesterday, I didn't have breakfast and I was snacking like mad. So. Now I'm going to have breakfast all the time. Except there are wheetos in the cupboard and they're awfully tempting. But I checked the label, and because they're a kiddy food they don't really have much in them. Except chocolate. Gosh.

Anyway. Not much excerise. But I went for an EVEN LONGER walk yesterday. 1hr 45 minutes or something. But to be fair, I had to stop for a while because there was a tractor cutting the grass, and I just couldn't be bothered to walk the UBER long way round, so I waited and let my dogs have a rest.

Well that's it for now I guess. =S I'm going to get some kiwi fruit and pomegranate.

Yay no work. I managed to wangle my way out of it, saying I had homework and revision to do, and that I really needed to finish tidying my room. After lunch, i'm going to be going for an hour bikeride, and taking my dog out for half n hours walk. And this time it will STAY HALF AN HOUR. Or Maybe an hour, I don't know. All I know is my dog gets pretty tired pretty quickly.

I woke up too late to have breakfast. Well I could have breakfast, I just wouldn't be having lunch until about 7 o'clock tonight. Which will suck.

So I've been looking at fitness equipment. I think I've decided with my next pay check, I'm going to buy some walking weights, some dumbbells, a sticky mat and a skipping rope. Maybe even a trampoline.

I'll probably do a half hour of these a day, then take my dog out for a half hour - 1hr walk, or alternate between cycling and dog walking. Not too sure yet. I'm also trying to drink as much water as possible, and trying SO HARD to cut out fizzy drinks. At the moment, it's pretty easy because there aren't none in the house. But just water is getting kind of pah. So I might get my mum to buy me some flavoured teas. Not cammomile, because I've discovered it's not very nice. Mm speaking of which, when we went into London on monday, the peeps at whittakers were handing out free samples. There peach tea is DIVINE. I must say.

13 days until my first weigh in. I don't think I've lost ANYTHING. But it's only the third day, I'll let myself off. Haha.

So I was looking for some slimming communities on Lj. Most of them seem to be devoted to anorexia. Just reading how many calories they take in a day, made me hungry. I've had 540cals worth of bread today. Kind of bad. But, low-fat spread and tuna -the mayonnaise. Which was only like 104cals. I haven't done too badly. 300cals for breakfast, leaves plenty of calories for dinner, and I should be well within my target.

I hope I never get desperate enough to starve myself. I hope I continue this. I can already feel the waves of fatigue and apathy flowing over me. But I will do this.

This journal, has been a real outlet for me in the past 4 hours ahah.

... I will need to lose 3 stone by the end of december/january. EEK. Which means Christmas is going to be fun! After I've gotten over the first 3 stone, and get back into horse riding twice a week, the weight will essentially drop off.

I so very badly want to be fit and healthy.

I wasn't always *this* large. I used to be fairly sporty back in the day, but I had two accidents which lead to my fitness and willpower level to disentigrate into tiny specks of NOTHING. Firstly, just before my birthday 12th birthday, my friend decided it'd be awesome to push a chair out from underneath me as I went to sit down. Resulting in my SMACKING my coxix on the harsh concrete floor. The teachers moved me (despite me not being able to move my legs and the class being awfully rowdy - I'm now claiming off of the insurance money this will bring and if I get enough, and lose enough weight by the time I'm 18 -when I get the money- I'm going on a shopping spree in good ol' London town.) and blah di blah. I got to the hospital, found out I had spina biffida and had to take it easy for a while. So I did, went back to horse riding/running. Then one day, I get on a horse which freaks out and bolts, bucking me off in the process. The story should've ended there, except my foot gets caught in the stirrup so I'm dragged along behind this GIANT of a horse. Luckily the stirrup buckle was slightly dodgy and worked it's way free.

So last year, while on holiday I plucked up the courage to take a 3 hour horse riding session in wales, along the beach and through the valleys. It was just like old times, I loved it. I can't wait to get horse riding again, except I'm so fat now that I'd just break the horses backs. This is why I need to lose a fair amount by the time january comes around. 42 lbs I make it to be. Which I think is 15 weeks. That means I have to lose 2.8lbs a week. Which is what I was aiming for anyway =).

I was really worried earlier. I was reading up on some website that had various calory calculators and stuff. I don't particularly pay attention to calory counting. I don't think I ever have done. I know what's healthy for me and I know the amounts. But all this calorie counting just makes me paranoid. Anyway, this website said that lowering your calorie intake too much will result in your metabolic rate slowing like fuck and the weight being put back on. Now I'm worried that because I've cut out the snacking (which was my downfall) and have started eating a proper breakfast (rather than skipping it entirely or having some random food. Yesterday I had baternberg for breakfast =S) that my calorie intake will be far too low and my metabolic rate will be virtually kaput. It said I should aim to take in about 2000 a day to lose fat. Along with excercise. Oh I don't know. All these calculations are making my head hurt!

I just took my dogs out for a walk, Which was supposed to last half n hour but somehow ended up being 1 1/2 hours. And today, all I've had is a bowl of alpen for breaky, a tuna and cucumber sammich (with a shape peach and passionfruit yoghurt for "dessert") and I will be having roast chicken with jacket potato and steamed vegetables for dinner. Although now I'm talking about food, I'm starting to get twinges in my stomach. I might go and find a banana.

I really need to tidy my room, and tomorrow, I will be back at work. ARGH. I hate the job so much. It's so dull. I never want to work in an office. Ever.

Ok. So. Since I can't seem to get along with blogspot (lump of manure that it is)OR Xanga. I've decided to transfer my blog over to here.

So. My name is Leigh. I'm 17. and I currently weigh...an awful lot. I hope to lose 70-90lbs maybe even hundred. This whole blog.journal whatever is to document that, and give me some sort of inspiration to keep it up!

Today I went to London with my friends, and we went in topshop and h+m. I just felt so awkward and uncomfortable, because there's no way in hell that those clothes would EVER fit me. So I made a decision to lose the flab.

If I can keep up being a vegan for 5 months. I hope I can keep up a diet. Especially if I see that I'm losing weight, I hope that will inspire me to keep on.

Even more so, I think I'm growing out of the tomboy phase that I seem to have been living in for the past 17 years. I don't want to dress like a man anymore, I want to be fashionable and girly!

So. I dont' want to be too skinny. Because I'm quite tall, with quite wide hips and I want to retain my curvyness. I want to get down to maybe a size 12-14-16. I'm currently a 20-22 (depending on the shop). I know. Shocking for a 17 year old right?

I don't want to end up like my cousin, who, I think starves herself.

So anyway. I've calculated, that if I lose 2lbs a week, by my 18th birthday, I will have lost 44lbs. another 13 weeks and I would've lost the bottom end of my traget amount to lose. That's only if I lose 2lbs a week. I heard that you lose more than that in the first few weeks, because it's all water and stuff? I don't know. I'm not big on the diet scene. Which is obvious if you've ever met me.

I hope my mum supports me. She says she buys healthyily when she blatantly does not. Processed food is not healthy.

So this is an awful long post. I shall weigh myself int wo weeks time, to see if I have actually LOST any weight.





[EDIT] I want to lose around 87lbs. So, by my calculations, if I lose 2lbs a week starting from this week, it will take me 43.5 weeks to get to my target weight. Hopefully I'll lose more than 2lbs a week, between 3 and 4 (I think that's the uppermost end of what I can lose and still maintain a healthy weight loss). if I lose 3lbs a week it will take me 29 weeks. 29 weeks is not long. That's just before my birthday I think.